For I know the plans that I have for you, says the Lord. Plans for good and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Rest in that my son. Life is confusing. Life is not always easy but then again if it was, how much would you trust Me? Keep pressing on. Keep fighting. Whenever you feel as you do now, remember that I clothe the flowers of the field and if I take so much interest in those tiny plants - kinda like the one rose in your room thats not supposed to be there..hehe..(God has a sense of humor), then my son, how much more will I take care of you? So much more. So, so much more. I love you..........remember that.