I'm tired.........tired emotionally. Seriously. I am sick of trying to figure out girls. Why is it so hard? - It was never supposed to be. I am just a very open person who tends to put so much into something. If I think its gonna work, or I want it to, or if I think it has a chance of working, I go all in - with everything I got. No questions asked, just complete devotion to try and make this thing work. Thats why it ends up hurting in the end. I am not one of those guys who gets interested in a girl, leads her on emotionally, and then walks out of her life forever only to find the next girl that he can treat that way. Now have I ever led a girl on? Yes. I'm guilty of some of those things that guys have done, but the difference is that I don't make it a habit. That is not me being who I know I am........thats me being an idiot. When it comes down to it, this is who I am. I believe in decency. I believe in caring for the other person and doing my best to look out for her best interests as opposed to mine - but I guess girls aren't used to that. Thats why good guys don't have a chance..........and then again, I have contributed to this stereotype, so I have myself to thank too. Am I bitter and resentful? Absolutely not. I hold nothing against anyone. I promise. I'm just tired. Really tired............ and thats when I say, Dear God please.........