I'm tired.........tired emotionally. Seriously. I am sick of trying to figure out girls. Why is it so hard? - It was never supposed to be. I am just a very open person who tends to put so much into something. If I think its gonna work, or I want it to, or if I think it has a chance of working, I go all in - with everything I got. No questions asked, just complete devotion to try and make this thing work. Thats why it ends up hurting in the end. I am not one of those guys who gets interested in a girl, leads her on emotionally, and then walks out of her life forever only to find the next girl that he can treat that way. Now have I ever led a girl on? Yes. I'm guilty of some of those things that guys have done, but the difference is that I don't make it a habit. That is not me being who I know I am........thats me being an idiot. When it comes down to it, this is who I am. I believe in decency. I believe in caring for the other person and doing my best to look out for her best interests as opposed to mine - but I guess girls aren't used to that. Thats why good guys don't have a chance..........and then again, I have contributed to this stereotype, so I have myself to thank too. Am I bitter and resentful? Absolutely not. I hold nothing against anyone. I promise. I'm just tired. Really tired............ and thats when I say, Dear God please.........

What a day......what a weekend........what a week. Life has been fun this week. Good times with friends - times that you won't get anywhere else. My NCAA bracket is screwed but so is everyone elses, so who cares. I'm just really mellow right now. I'm done posting for now but yes, I am still alive - just thought I'd keep my fans informed.

You dance over me while I am not aware
You sing all around but I never hear the sound........

Lord, I'm amazed by you - and how you love me.

Have you ever had one of those moments with God where you just walk away so grateful that He is in control. No seriously, that may sound "churchy" and so Christianity cliche but its the truth. Whenever I have been away from Him and just really distant, I come running back to Him and He embraces me as if I never left. It's like a parent who has a little toddler and they will be in a park somewhere or in a big area and they just kind of let that little one go for a second. That little one kind of hobbles a few feet away from mom or dad and then gets overwhelmed by how big life really is, and just turns and runs right back to their parents with arms outstretched. That child gets curious but quickly realizes that there is safety and security with mom and dad.

Thats how I was last night. I had to run back to my Dad because the things of life had become huge - too big for me and I was overwhelmed............wow.

Jesus your love, it takes my breath away!

It's been a long time, I know. Spring break is over and school has begun again. This last week was a blast - good times. Many memories were made, many laughs were enjoyed and even a few lessons were learned. I made new friends and spent time with some old ones. I love the state of Florida. I love the beach and anything that has to do with the ocean. I love the times when you just laugh uncontrollablybecause things are so funny. I love ranting.......because thats what I'm doing. Basically I had a great spring break in Cocoa Beach, FL and I would do it again in a heartbeat but...........school is in session again but........only for six more weeks. Pray that I finish strong.